here is the story of my ride yesterday [07 Jun 2004|10:51am] yesterday, around...9 o clockish, i was doing my normal thing, you know. i was pretty upset, so instead of sitting there wallowing in my own self pity, i picked up my bike and went out for a ride. i went to the normal school that i like to ride. nice rail, a very fun wall ride, benches to grind, and ledges and curbs to 180 off and on to. i have a lot of fun there. its my playground. but yesterday was different. my normal riding wasnt cheering me up enough. so i was trying some new things out. some new grinds, wallrides to 180 offs. things that would make me very happy if i landed. but i didnt land any of them (go figure) and i took some pretty bad wrecks. but thats ok, i can live with that. i look down at my arms, they are shining with sweat, my shirt is dripping, my hair is in clumps of sweat. my eyes start to burn, i think that its sweat dripping down into my eyes, but when i wip my forehead, its not sweat, but blood. i have a pretty nasty cut right above my eyes, and it was dripping down all over my face. i was sweating so hard, i didnt even begin to think that it could possible be blood. and now that i'm not in the "i must ride and destroy" mode, i looked at my entire body, my arms, still shinny, my legs, covered in what seems to be a mix of sweat, blood, and nasty leg hairs. i have blood seeping through my chucks. and my hands have never been this torn up in my life. but still looking foward to the contest on saturday (if i'll be able to go ::crosses fingers::) 3 comments|post comment

[06 Jun 2004|02:29pm] i have a question... who here misses me at all? and put why please thanks, its just one of those moods where you think no one cares you know? tony 11 comments|post comment

[06 Jun 2004|02:12pm] counting down the days.... just put me back on my bike, nothing can harm me there. all i need is my bike, some music and no matter what, i can make it. (in case you cant tell, things havnt been so good for me latley) post comment

[04 Jun 2004|05:41pm] right back where i was a couple months ago, but this time i took the advice of a good pal from up here, and i am going to ann arbor to ride my ass off and take my mind off of everything. should be loads of kick ass fun, or i hope so. my bike hasnt rode better in a long time. so it should be good ""knocks on wood"" will this one stay or just fade away? only time will tell wont it? 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jun 2004|06:53am] alrighty, so heres the story, i'm riding yesterday (so whats new?) and i see a nice wall. now i was diong some very nice wall rides on this wall, so i decided that i should try a little something new on it. i was giong for a wallride to 180 off. it wasnt working to well, it was like a wallride to 90 off. so i tried it one more time then snap i snaped my right crank arm right off. medal was everywhere, it bent then snaped so sparp shards were everywhere in my leg. so i'm riding with brad and he starts laughing his ass off. then we go to his house where we hook up one of his spare cranks until i get myself a new one. but my good old XS bad boy finaly died rest in peices little buddy post comment

[03 Jun 2004|07:24am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | i was very bored :-/ ] stolen from a friend [02 Jun 2004|01:48am] poisonedxheartx Have you.. x. Fallen for your best guy friend - sure hope not :-/ x. Made out with JUST a friend - yes i have x. Been rejected - oh yeah x. Been in love - yes i have x. Used someone - i would like to think not x. Been used - you know it x. Cheated on someone - hell no x. Been cheated on - that is something i dont know, but i hope not x. Done something you regret - who hasnt? Who was the last person.. x. You touched - stacy? x. You talked to – my bike x. You hugged – my aunts father x. You instant messaged – mark x. You yelled at – my bike :-/ its a love hate relationship x. You laughed with - stacy, we were laughing at my "cousin" cory x. You had a crush on – jami x. Who broke your heart – sorry, cant break stone lol annie Do you.. x. Color your hair – once and a while x. Have tattoos - just one....but you cant see it x. Piercings - my ear, and my belly again soon x. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both – nope, just dating around x. Floss daily - no, but i do when i remember x. Own a webcam - nope x. Ever get off the damn computer – am i ever really on it? x. Sprechen sie deutsche – what now? x. Habla espanol – i wish Have u ((ever))... x. Considered a life of crime – i live one ;) BMX is a crime you know x. Considered being a hooker- well...lol, no i havnt x. Considered being a pimp – i am a pimp x. Are you psycho – in our own way, arnt we all? x. Split personalities -- i dont think so, but we seem to disagree a lot x. Obsessive- nope x. Obsessive compulsive – i hope not x. Panic- yes, i do at times x. Anxiety - once and a while x. Depressed – nope x. Suicidal - nope x. Obsessed with hate - yes, MWA HA HA HA, no i'm not x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be - home x. What are you listening to – people talking (i'm in the libary) x. Can you do anything freakish with your body – i can walk! and i can with stand a lot of pain x. Do you have a favorite animal- turtles x. Current Clothes – chucks, black sox, kaki's sugarcult shit (very tight) and boxers x. Current Mood - i'm feeling pretty good x. Current Music – nada x. Current Taste – jone's cream soda x. Current Hair - i woke up this way x. Current Annoyance – rain, i cant ride x. Current Smell – must, (people here smell like cabbage) x. Current thing I ought to be doing – riding x. Current Desktop Picture – i like the one on B-rads computer x. current Favorite Group – 36 crazyfists and sugarcult and bright eyes x. Current Book – ride of my life ~mat hoffman x. Current DVD In Player - return of the king x. Current Refreshment – jones (i have cream soda, blue bobble gun and cherry soda in my bag) x. Current Worry – will it be dry enough to ride today x. Current Crush – none right now x. Current Favorite Celebrity – i truly dont know Favorite.. x. Drink – cream soda x. Color – pink and black x. Shoes – i like to bling bling with some etnies x. Candy - pop rocks x. Animal- turtles x. TV Show – that 70s show x. Movie – the never ending story x. Dance – i like to Are you... x. Understanding – yes x. Open-minded – yes x. Insecure- not anymore x. Interesting – only until you find someone as crazy as me x. Hungry - yeah, i'd say so ( i need food ) x. Friendly – yes x. Smart- when i feel the need x. Moody - omg, yes x. Childish - hell yeah! x. Independent - for the most part x. Hard working – very x. Organized – have you seen my room? x. Healthy – as a wounded duck x. Emotionally Stable - never x. Shy – hell no x. Difficult- on the G x. Bored Easily - yeah i am x. Thirsty - not right now....wait, now i am x. Responsible - i can be x. Sad- not at this moment x. Happy - yes, i am x. Trusting - very x. Talkative – when i feel the need to be x. Unique- ever see anyone like me yet? Who do you want to.. x. Kill – ha ha ha...i have a list called "The List" x. Slap - my math teacher x. Be like – less like you and more like me but i want to ride like hoffman On you.. x. Name - Tony (God) x. Nicknames – T-nizzle Tone Ton T-bon Tone lock x. Hair color - brown x. Birthday – December 19. 1986 x. Eye Color – green x. Siblings- kate my older sister, sarah and sally are my younger ones x. How do you describe yourself- sexy as hell x. What's your sign - beware of dog x. Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend - just dating around On friends.. x. Friend(s) you go to for advice – leah, mark, billy, adem, mike, penny, chris, chelsea, ashley, man, i go to a lot of people....kayleen, sara, i know there's more x. Friend(s) you have the most fun with – who ever goes to the skatepark with me x. Friend(s) you've dreamt about - mostly everyone, but they are really odd dreams x. Friend(s) your tell secrets to – mark and leah and billy What's your favorite.. x. Number - 18 x. Holiday - turkey day x. Radio station - gaint 90.9 x. Place – my backyard, you cant beat riding back there x. Flower – rose x. Scent - my uncle's land 1 comment|post comment

[03 Jun 2004|06:49am] =0 that is my mad/in pain face right there here's some advice for everyone, never question your abilitys at all i was blasting at al wall that i was going to do a wall ride on, and i've done this at least a hundred times before hand. ya know? so here i am, pedaling my balls out, and all of a sudden, i question if i can do it or not. now here is tony, going as fast as he can, and he is without the aid of brakes. what fun i try it anyways, dont lean enough so my tires dont grip the wall, so you can see it cant you? the tires slide right out from under me, and the first thing to hit is my shoulder, then my head. now i have some very nice road rash on my shoulder, and a big ass bump on my head never question yourself ~tony 1 comment|post comment

[02 Jun 2004|06:53am] so i'm back here in michigan, and it blows~! sure its more managable now that i'm recharged a bit, but still it sux being here and away from my friends family and daisy :( there are so many things that seemed changed at home, but something things will never change. i'm still in major shock about finding somethings out. but it will settle down soon. i'm trying to go to rock the skatepark! mike, if you enter, you can easily win best trick with your indy to late finger flip i really dont have a lot new going on, so i'll catch you all later ~tony 2 comments|post comment

[30 May 2004|09:13am] i'm sitting with rain falling down, just thoughts giong through my head, and i was wondering...does any one really know me at all? can anyone say that they know Tony Lauinger? so i decided to make a little quiz for everyone to take, lets see how well you know me here.... ~hi I'm Tony, whats your name? ~do you know who my favorite bands are? ~who is my sponcer right now? ~what is my beautiful dog's name? (fill in the blank on the next one) ~you smell like ______! ~name something that i pride myself in above all else ~what are my favorite colors? ~do you want me to come home? ~how do you know me? ~tell me of a memory that you will never forget with me. ~where do you see me going in life? ok, i know i got off track, but answer the questions anyways :p 5 comments|post comment

[30 May 2004|12:32am] quote of the day "my seatbelt has air bags" ~derek post comment

[29 May 2004|01:56pm] i was just reading (or should i say deleting) old emails, old journal comments. i love it, looking back and reliezing how much better off i am now. i can now sit back and laugh at a lot of things, its so awesome. :) well, mark is now here, and i have some parties to go to, so i'll inform everyone about everything soon ~Tony 3 comments|post comment

[28 May 2004|05:00pm] waffle house today or should i say tonight BE THERE!!! more info later....call billy's cell for info, when he gets it 1 comment|post comment

[26 May 2004|06:55am] me and b rad have just made a DIRT quarter pipe hell yeah! thats right, and to top it all off, a carpet sub box on top of it. it doesnt grind well at all, there are rocks in the quarter, you can get carpet burn trying to wall ride, but it is the funnest thing i have done up here. once again, i leave you with a song and a question what would you tell me if you could only tell me one more thing? Did I miss your call again? No, you never called. It was a thought inside my head. Did I take the fall again? I should have paid attention, to all the words you said. 'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay. Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. I've checked my caller id. There was every number, but the one I wanna see. I've been falling apart. Since you've been gone, I don't know where I need to start. 'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay. Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. Away she is, I can't live in this, 'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay. Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. If I told you that I loved you, Would it matter at all? If I told you that I need you, Would you catch me if I fall? Fall 'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay. Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. Away she is, I can't live in this, Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles. 7 comments|post comment

tony's theorys [24 May 2004|08:33am] there is a word in the english launguge that is more than often taken advantage of. many people use it so...often and lightly that i think that hardly anyone truly knows the real meaning of this word anymore. i am not speaking of "love" as many of you may have thought. no, i am speaking of the word "home" think about this word for a moment what is home to you? when i sit and wonder what home is i come up with MANY different answers home is my house for one, its where i grew up, where all my family is home is DA post office, where all my friends hang out home is hanging out in my basement playing pool home is my radio show every tuesday night home is going to the skatepark with everyone home is my room, where so many memories are hanging home is my mini ramp in the backyard, where endless hours have been spent home is the ceramics room home is where ever daisy is home is drivine justin and derek home from school home is tagging up the skatepark with derek home is going to thacher, seeing all my friends there (mike, leah, adem jessicia (sorry if its spelled wrong, kelly, and who ever else i might be leaving out of the thacher staff) home is everyone back at washington home is throwing cups of ice out at people mowing the lawn (mike) home is calling someone at midnight and them comming over till four home is mike's "birthday suprise" home is watching two towers with adem until he fell asleep home is talking to sarah before i go to sleep home is going to kayleens in the morning for her to do my hair home is the drive through crispy cream home is not giving cris his lighter so he cant smoke home is pouring all the boos out, and putting water in the clear one, walking around drinking the water, making everyone think i'm drinking home is jumping off my roof home is getting my belly botton percied now that you all know part of my home, i leave you all with a question what is your home? 9 comments|post comment

[21 May 2004|08:09am] well, i asked the jones bottle (thats where you ask it a question before you open it, and see what the cap sez) a question this morning, now usualy when i ask it something like "should i ride today?" it sez in return "the pain of the world must go through" but today i asked it if i should ask this cami (i know, odd name, but its her real name) out on a date tonight, and it told me "your fantasy will come true" so does that mean yes? 9 comments|post comment

[18 May 2004|08:39am] this right here is a song i heard, and once i heard it, i started crying. then i saw my mom a day after, and made her listen to it....i could see the tears filling up her eyes. it is an amazing song... I wonder if you're alone up there Since you've been gone, I've been alone down here She told me that I would be OK Now I don't believe, what she had to say When she said don't worry, and you'll be fine It's only a matter, a matter of time As she sits back and finishes her wine She prays to the lord I'll be fine Now days have passed, and weeks have too All I think about is how I miss you She told me that I would be OK But I feel the same that I felt that day When she said don't worry, and you'll be fine It's only a matter, a matter of time As she sits back and finishes her wine She prays to the lord I'll be fine She prays to the lord I'll be fine He don't know what he has done Mother prays to the lord above Lord please save my son He don't know what he has done (The damage has been done to them) She prays to the lord above Lord please save my son She says don't worry, and you'll be fine It's only a matter of time She says don't worry, and you'll be fine It's only a matter, a matter of time As she sits back and finishes her wine She prays to the lord I'll be fine She prays to the lord I'll be fine She says don't worry, and you'll be fine It's only a matter of time It's only a matter of time 1 comment|post comment

[15 May 2004|07:26pm] i'm counting down the days soon, i'll be home and a little after that it'll be for good mike penny leah april billy mark adem heather sami judi Q sara kayleen bub chris derek kelly liz jessicia (sorry if its spelled wrong) darcy amanda ashley mom dad sarah katie sally daisy the list just goes on and on...i miss you all I'm comming home! 11 comments|post comment

[11 May 2004|08:38am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | 36 crazyfist today :) ] Think I'll rename my heart, the calendar. 'Cause it'll surely know just when to end. And I've been looking at you through the telephone, as the photograph whispers that she isn't even home. So alone, I bleed myself right in. Unusual here breathing, inviting the silence. But you're not here, you're nowhere near at all. Just skin and atmosphere. And if it's not what you wanted, better get out now. Alone it takes me, underneath it'll surely break me. Underneath these things. Twenty some years my parents let themselves leave. I always swore that would never, ever be me. And now you're looking at me through a new lens, your voice on the end doesn't understand anything, nor do I. Paper cuts for me. Prove me wrong, I want you to prove me wrong. update the life of tony is going on as it must, his ankle is getting a little better ever day. he is riding every chance he gets. and every tuesday is lazer tag day. he is as of right now not in the best of moods because something happened to him today that wasnt very good at all. he met 36 crazyfists, and most of them either are or are interested in BMX, so we talked about that for a while. and with that, i leave you with Tony's Song for the fishermen (his edited version) There were thousands of days as we traveled down North Road, and I remember my uncle on his last day, and how I would kill to shake his hand again. And on goes the battle of years upon years. My Father's eyes bring me solace, and his look of focus I try to instill. As my Mother reads as an example of strength beyond strength, and with her I became me. There are two girls with whom I've known longer than anyone, and my debt to them is Lifetime. The gathering of boys I rely on, know exactly who they are and I will build their protection with bloody hands. Some were dealt knuckles and some delivered kisses, but initially my heart was in the right place. There are times when being engulfed by Bike Ramps are the only signs of safety I know. And I realize I think this way out of neglection and at the exact thought I reclaim those days of scenery. There are places like the Post office and the Radio Room at Ben Davis that most of us will never forget. Those are the things I wanted to speak of, those are the things that I dream about, those are the things that I will definitely die with, 1 comment|post comment

[11 May 2004|07:08am] I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore, Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for, When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder, Is there anything I'm going to miss, I wonder How's it going to be, When you don't know me, How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there, How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to, Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care, How's it going to be, How's it going to be, Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match, Sharp as a thumbnail scratch, A silence I can't ignore, Like . . The hammock by the doorway we spent time in, Swing empty, don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me, I wonder How's it going to be, When it goes down, How's it going to be, When you're not around, How's it going to be, When you find out there was nothing, Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care, How's it going to be, How's it going to be When you don't know me, any more And How's it going to be Want to get myself back in again, The soft dive of oblivion. Want to taste the salt of your skin The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion How's it going to be, When you don't know me, anymore, How's it going to be, How's it going to be, How's it going to be. post comment

[06 May 2004|07:07am] ok, here's an update on tony's crush, i not only found out her name (jamie) (to many goddamn J names now) but i got her phone number and a date with her either tonight or tomarrow night pending on work. yes i know, i am a P imp i made up with niki (my ride to school) so everything is all peachy with that, infact i'm on her "a" list now time for class bitches post comment

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