tonys_trips

here is the story of my ride yesterday

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 15:03:22 GMT

yesterday, around...9 o clockish, i was doing my normal thing, you know. i was pretty upset, so instead of sitting there wallowing in my own self pity, i picked up my bike and went out for a ride. i went to the normal school that i like to ride. nice rail, a very fun wall ride, benches to grind, and ledges and curbs to 180 off and on to. i have a lot of fun there. its my playground. but yesterday was different. my normal riding wasnt cheering me up enough. so i was trying some new things out. some new grinds, wallrides to 180 offs. things that would make me very happy if i landed. but i didnt land any of them (go figure) and i took some pretty bad wrecks. but thats ok, i can live with that. i look down at my arms, they are shining with sweat, my shirt is dripping, my hair is in clumps of sweat. my eyes start to burn, i think that its sweat dripping down into my eyes, but when i wip my forehead, its not sweat, but blood. i have a pretty nasty cut right above my eyes, and it was dripping down all over my face. i was sweating so hard, i didnt even begin to think that it could possible be blood. and now that i'm not in the "i must ride and destroy" mode, i looked at my entire body, my arms, still shinny, my legs, covered in what seems to be a mix of sweat, blood, and nasty leg hairs. i have blood seeping

through

my chucks. and my hands have never been this torn up in my life.

but still looking foward to the contest on saturday (if i'll be able to go ::crosses fingers::)

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 18:30:34 GMT

i have a question...

who here misses me at all?

and put why please

thanks, its just one of those moods where you think no one cares you know?

tony

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 18:16:35 GMT

counting down the days....

just put me back on my bike, nothing can harm me there.

all i need is my bike, some music and no matter what, i can make it.

(in case you cant tell, things havnt been so good for me latley)

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 21:46:35 GMT

right back where i was a couple months ago, but this time i took the advice of a good pal from up here, and i am going to ann arbor to ride my ass off and take my mind off of everything. should be loads of kick ass fun, or i hope so. my bike hasnt rode better in a long time. so it should be good ""knocks on wood""

will this one stay or just fade away?

only time will tell wont it?

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 11:00:02 GMT

alrighty, so heres the story, i'm riding yesterday (so whats new?) and i see a nice wall. now i was diong some very nice wall rides on this wall, so i decided that i should try a little something new on it. i was giong for a wallride to 180 off. it wasnt working to well, it was like a wallride to 90 off. so i tried it one more time then

snap

i snaped my right crank arm right off. medal was everywhere, it bent then snaped so sparp shards were everywhere in my leg. so i'm riding with brad and he starts laughing his ass off. then we go to his house where we hook up one of his spare cranks until i get myself a new one.

but my good old XS bad boy finaly died

rest in peices little buddy

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 11:53:22 GMT

stolen from a friend [02 Jun 2004|01:48am]
poisonedxheartx

Have you..
x. Fallen for your best guy friend - sure hope not :-/
x. Made out with JUST a friend - yes i have
x. Been rejected - oh yeah
x. Been in love - yes i have
x. Used someone - i would like to think not
x. Been used - you know it
x. Cheated on someone - hell no
x. Been cheated on - that is something i dont know, but i hope not
x. Done something you regret - who hasnt?

Who was the last person..
x. You touched - stacy?
x. You talked to – my bike
x. You hugged – my aunts father
x. You instant messaged – mark
x. You yelled at – my bike :-/ its a love hate relationship
x. You laughed with - stacy, we were laughing at my "cousin" cory
x. You had a crush on – jami
x. Who broke your heart – sorry, cant break stone lol annie

Do you..
x. Color your hair – once and a while
x. Have tattoos - just one....but you cant see it
x. Piercings - my ear, and my belly again soon
x. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both – nope, just dating around
x. Floss daily - no, but i do when i remember
x. Own a webcam - nope
x. Ever get off the damn computer – am i ever really on it?
x. Sprechen sie deutsche – what now?
x. Habla espanol – i wish

Have u ((ever))...
x. Considered a life of crime – i live one ;) BMX is a crime you know
x. Considered being a hooker- well...lol, no i havnt
x. Considered being a pimp – i am a pimp
x. Are you psycho – in our own way, arnt we all?
x. Split personalities -- i dont think so, but we seem to disagree a lot
x. Obsessive- nope
x. Obsessive compulsive – i hope not
x. Panic- yes, i do at times
x. Anxiety - once and a while
x. Depressed – nope
x. Suicidal - nope
x. Obsessed with hate - yes, MWA HA HA HA, no i'm not
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be - home
x. What are you listening to – people talking (i'm in the libary)
x. Can you do anything freakish with your body – i can walk! and i can with stand a lot of pain
x. Do you have a favorite animal- turtles

x. Current Clothes – chucks, black sox, kaki's sugarcult shit (very tight) and boxers
x. Current Mood - i'm feeling pretty good
x. Current Music – nada
x. Current Taste – jone's cream soda
x. Current Hair - i woke up this way
x. Current Annoyance – rain, i cant ride
x. Current Smell – must, (people here smell like cabbage)
x. Current thing I ought to be doing – riding
x. Current Desktop Picture – i like the one on B-rads computer
x. current Favorite Group – 36 crazyfists and sugarcult and bright eyes
x. Current Book – ride of my life ~mat hoffman
x. Current DVD In Player - return of the king
x. Current Refreshment – jones (i have cream soda, blue bobble gun and cherry soda in my bag)
x. Current Worry – will it be dry enough to ride today
x. Current Crush – none right now
x. Current Favorite Celebrity – i truly dont know

Favorite..
x. Drink – cream soda
x. Color – pink and black
x. Shoes – i like to bling bling with some etnies
x. Candy - pop rocks
x. Animal- turtles
x. TV Show – that 70s show
x. Movie – the never ending story
x. Dance – i like to

Are you...
x. Understanding – yes
x. Open-minded – yes
x. Insecure- not anymore
x. Interesting – only until you find someone as crazy as me
x. Hungry - yeah, i'd say so ( i need food )
x. Friendly – yes
x. Smart- when i feel the need
x. Moody - omg, yes
x. Childish - hell yeah!
x. Independent - for the most part
x. Hard working – very
x. Organized – have you seen my room?
x. Healthy – as a wounded duck
x. Emotionally Stable - never
x. Shy – hell no
x. Difficult- on the G
x. Bored Easily - yeah i am
x. Thirsty - not right now....wait, now i am
x. Responsible - i can be
x. Sad- not at this moment
x. Happy - yes, i am
x. Trusting - very
x. Talkative – when i feel the need to be
x. Unique- ever see anyone like me yet?

Who do you want to..
x. Kill – ha ha ha...i have a list called "The List"
x. Slap - my math teacher
x. Be like – less like you and more like me but i want to ride like hoffman

On you..
x. Name - Tony (God)
x. Nicknames – T-nizzle Tone Ton T-bon Tone lock
x. Hair color - brown
x. Birthday – December 19. 1986
x. Eye Color – green
x. Siblings- kate my older sister, sarah and sally are my younger ones
x. How do you describe yourself- sexy as hell
x. What's your sign - beware of dog
x. Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend - just dating around

On friends..
x. Friend(s) you go to for advice – leah, mark, billy, adem, mike, penny, chris, chelsea, ashley, man, i go to a lot of people....kayleen, sara, i know there's more
x. Friend(s) you have the most fun with – who ever goes to the skatepark with me
x. Friend(s) you've dreamt about - mostly everyone, but they are really odd dreams
x. Friend(s) your tell secrets to – mark and leah and billy

What's your favorite..
x. Number - 18
x. Holiday - turkey day
x. Radio station - gaint 90.9
x. Place – my backyard, you cant beat riding back there
x. Flower – rose
x. Scent - my uncle's land

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 10:59:49 GMT

=0

that is my mad/in pain face right there

here's some advice for everyone, never question your abilitys at all

i was blasting at al wall that i was going to do a wall ride on, and i've done this at least a hundred times before hand. ya know? so here i am, pedaling my balls out, and all of a sudden, i question if i can do it or not. now here is tony, going as fast as he can, and he is without the aid of brakes. what fun

i try it anyways, dont lean enough so my tires dont grip the wall, so you can see it cant you? the tires slide right out from under me, and the first thing to hit is my shoulder, then my head.

now i have some very nice road rash on my shoulder, and a big ass bump on my head

never question yourself

~tony

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 10:59:07 GMT

so i'm back here in michigan, and it blows~! sure its more managable now that i'm recharged a bit, but still it sux being here and away from my friends family and daisy :( there are so many things that seemed changed at home, but something things will never change. i'm still in major shock about finding somethings out. but it will settle down soon.

i'm trying to go to rock the skatepark! mike, if you enter, you can easily win best trick with your indy to late finger flip

i really dont have a lot new going on, so i'll catch you all later

~tony

Sun, 30 May 2004 15:00:40 GMT

i'm sitting with rain falling down, just thoughts giong through my head, and i was wondering...does any one really know me at all? can anyone say that they know Tony Lauinger?
so i decided to make a little quiz for everyone to take, lets see how well you know me here....

~hi I'm Tony, whats your name?

~do you know who my favorite bands are?

~who is my sponcer right now?

~what is my beautiful dog's name?

(fill in the blank on the next one)

~you smell like ______!

~name something that i pride myself in above all else

~what are my favorite colors?

~do you want me to come home?

~how do you know me?

~tell me of a memory that you will never forget with me.

~where do you see me going in life?

ok, i know i got off track, but answer the questions anyways :p

Sun, 30 May 2004 05:32:33 GMT

quote of the day

"my seatbelt has air bags"

~derek

Sat, 29 May 2004 19:09:43 GMT

i was just reading (or should i say deleting) old emails, old journal comments.

i love it, looking back and reliezing how much better off i am now. i can now sit back and laugh at a lot of things, its so awesome. :)

well, mark is now here, and i have some parties to go to, so i'll inform everyone about everything soon

~Tony

Fri, 28 May 2004 22:01:08 GMT

waffle house today or should i say tonight

BE THERE!!!

more info later....call billy's cell for info, when he gets it

Wed, 26 May 2004 11:07:33 GMT

me and b rad have just made a DIRT quarter pipe

hell yeah!
thats right, and to top it all off, a carpet sub box on top of it.

it doesnt grind well at all, there are rocks in the quarter, you can get carpet burn trying to wall ride, but it is the funnest thing i have done up here.

once again, i leave you with a song and a question

what would you tell me if you could only tell me one more thing?

Did I miss your call again?
No,
you never called.
It was a thought inside my head.
Did I take the fall again?
I should have paid attention, to all the words you said.

'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay.
Heartbreak, fake smile.
And 2000 miles.

I've checked my caller id.
There was every number,
but the one I wanna see.
I've been falling apart.
Since you've been gone, I don't know where I need to start.

'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay.
Heartbreak, fake smile.
And 2000 miles.

Away she is, I can't live in this,

'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay.
Heartbreak, fake smile.
And 2000 miles.

Heartbreak, fake smile. And 2000 miles.

If I told you that I loved you,
Would it matter at all?
If I told you that I need you,
Would you catch me if I fall?
Fall

'Cause I am lost today, I'm not okay.
Heartbreak, fake smile.
And 2000 miles.

Away she is, I can't live in this,

Heartbreak, fake smile.
And 2000 miles.

tony's theorys

Mon, 24 May 2004 12:51:17 GMT

there is a word in the english launguge that is more than often taken advantage of. many people use it so...often and lightly that i think that hardly anyone truly knows the real meaning of this word anymore. i am not speaking of "love" as many of you may have thought. no, i am speaking of the word "home"

think about this word for a moment

what is home to you?

when i sit and wonder what home is i come up with MANY different answers

home is my house for one, its where i grew up, where all my family is

home is DA post office, where all my friends hang out

home is hanging out in my basement playing pool

home is my radio show every tuesday night

home is going to the skatepark with everyone

home is my room, where so many memories are hanging

home is my mini ramp in the backyard, where endless hours have been spent

home is the ceramics room

home is where ever daisy is

home is drivine justin and derek home from school

home is tagging up the skatepark with derek

home is going to thacher, seeing all my friends there (mike, leah, adem jessicia (sorry if its spelled wrong, kelly, and who ever else i might be leaving out of the thacher staff)

home is everyone back at washington

home is throwing cups of ice out at people mowing the lawn (mike)

home is calling someone at midnight and them comming over till four

home is mike's "birthday suprise"

home is watching two towers with adem until he fell asleep

home is talking to sarah before i go to sleep

home is going to kayleens in the morning for her to do my hair

home is the drive through crispy cream

home is not giving cris his lighter so he cant smoke

home is pouring all the boos out, and putting water in the clear one, walking around drinking the water, making everyone think i'm drinking

home is jumping off my roof

home is getting my belly botton percied

now that you all know part of my home, i leave you all with a question

what is your home?

Fri, 21 May 2004 12:14:28 GMT

well, i asked the jones bottle (thats where you ask it a question before you open it, and see what the cap sez) a question this morning, now usualy when i ask it something like "should i ride today?" it sez in return "the pain of the world must go through"

but today i asked it if i should ask this cami (i know, odd name, but its her real name) out on a date tonight, and it told me "your fantasy will come true"

so does that mean yes?

Tue, 18 May 2004 12:46:05 GMT

this right here is a song i heard, and once i heard it, i started crying.

then i saw my mom a day after, and made her listen to it....i could see the tears filling up her eyes. it is an amazing song...

I wonder if you're alone up there
Since you've been gone, I've been alone down here
She told me that I would be OK
Now I don't believe, what she had to say

When she said don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter, a matter of time
As she sits back and finishes her wine
She prays to the lord I'll be fine

Now days have passed, and weeks have too
All I think about is how I miss you
She told me that I would be OK
But I feel the same that I felt that day

When she said don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter, a matter of time
As she sits back and finishes her wine
She prays to the lord I'll be fine
She prays to the lord I'll be fine

He don't know what he has done
Mother prays to the lord above
Lord please save my son
He don't know what he has done
(The damage has been done to them)
She prays to the lord above
Lord please save my son

She says don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter of time
She says don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter, a matter of time
As she sits back and finishes her wine
She prays to the lord I'll be fine
She prays to the lord I'll be fine
She says don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter of time
It's only a matter of time

Sat, 15 May 2004 23:31:26 GMT

i'm counting down the days

soon, i'll be home

and a little after that it'll be for good

mike penny leah april billy mark adem heather sami judi Q sara kayleen bub chris derek kelly liz jessicia (sorry if its spelled wrong) darcy amanda ashley mom dad sarah katie sally daisy the list just goes on and on...i miss you all

I'm comming home!

Tue, 11 May 2004 12:52:21 GMT

Think I'll rename my heart, the calendar.
'Cause it'll surely know just when to end.
And I've been looking at you through the telephone,
as the photograph whispers that she isn't even home.
So alone, I bleed myself right in.
Unusual here breathing, inviting the silence.

But you're not here,
you're nowhere near at all.
Just skin and atmosphere.
And if it's not what you wanted,
better get out now.
Alone it takes me,
underneath it'll surely break me.
Underneath these things.

Twenty some years my parents let themselves leave.
I always swore that would never, ever be me.
And now you're looking at me through a new lens,
your voice on the end doesn't understand anything, nor do I.
Paper cuts for me.

Prove me wrong,

I want you to prove me wrong.

update

the life of tony is going on as it must, his ankle is getting a little better ever day. he is riding every chance he gets. and every tuesday is lazer tag day. he is as of right now not in the best of moods because something happened to him today that wasnt very good at all. he met 36 crazyfists, and most of them either are or are interested in BMX, so we talked about that for a while. and with that, i leave you with

Tony's Song for the fishermen

(his edited version)

There were thousands of days
as we traveled down North Road,
and I remember my uncle on his last day,
and how I would kill to shake his hand again.
And on goes the battle of years upon years.
My Father's eyes bring me solace,
and his look of focus I try to instill.
As my Mother reads as an example
of strength beyond strength,

and with her I became me.

There are two girls
with whom I've known longer than anyone,
and my debt to them is Lifetime.
The gathering of boys I rely on,
know exactly who they are
and I will build their protection with bloody hands.
Some were dealt knuckles and some delivered kisses,
but initially my heart was in the right place.
There are times when being engulfed by Bike Ramps
are the only signs of safety I know.
And I realize I think this way out of neglection
and at the exact thought I reclaim those days of scenery.
There are places like the Post office
and the Radio Room at Ben Davis

that most of us will never forget.

Those are the things I wanted to speak of,
those are the things that

I dream about,

those are the things that

I will definitely die with,

Tue, 11 May 2004 11:10:17 GMT

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss, I wonder
How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be,

Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like . . The hammock by the doorway we spent time in, Swing empty,
don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me, I wonder

How's it going to be, When it goes down,
How's it going to be, When you're not around,
How's it going to be, When you find out there was nothing,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,

How's it going to be
When you don't know me, any more
And How's it going to be

Want to get myself back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.
Want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion

How's it going to be, When you don't know me, anymore,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be.

Thu, 06 May 2004 11:13:10 GMT

ok, here's an update on tony's crush, i not only found out her name (jamie) (to many goddamn J names now) but i got her phone number and a date with her either tonight or tomarrow night pending on work. yes i know, i am a P imp

i made up with niki (my ride to school) so everything is all peachy with that, infact i'm on her "a" list now

time for class bitches

Wed, 05 May 2004 12:53:58 GMT

ok now that i have more time to write, i'll give everyone the "down low" on what is going on in the life of tony. i went riding with Brad yesterday, bad BAD move there. we went to trany ramppark, i thought i would go nice and easy, but i went all out. i was going for my ally oop footplant (you've seen it mark, i think i first did it when i was with you) and i compleatly forgot that it was my bad foot that i kick off from. it gave way, and i went

SMACK

right into the wall, it was rather funny.

so i'm limping around again today, no crutches, cause i have a concert on saturday that i'm going to :)

36 crazyfists, machienehead (or something like that) and God forbid.

omg, i cant wait, its going to be crazy go nuts

me and Brad yesterday found it very fun to call julie about 10 times on different phones asking for the "biggest Wog you have"
she didnt find it funny, but we laughed our asses off

there is a girl in my lunch, who i have a crush on, so today i am going to be a big man and ask her for her name. i know, i know, ask her name? its a start isnt it?

i'm working a ass load latley, so that is fun

and i have 2 girls pissed off as hell at me. one happens to give me a ride to school, so i'm guessing its time for old tony to get a new ride.

bed at 10:30, very VERY nice, woke up all nice and refreshed

comming very soon everyone...."tony's top three"

stay tuned

Am I Wrong"

Well i talk
Too much
To myself
And i turn my back on my faith
It's like glass
When we Break
I wish no one in my place

and i've seen
you don't need their seeds
when their dirt goes in deep
and i'm lost in sleep

i can't stay
in this place
i can't stand
when the room turns round
on my fate
you give no guarantees

there's no promise
i can keep

i can't stand
i can't see my way
i feel blind
on my feet
i can't stay too long
am i wrong?

goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck

i'm so tired
of my mood
and sleep comes
with a knife, fork and a spoon
you're so pale
in your face
you let life
get in your way

and i've seen
you don't need their seeds
when their dirt goes in deep
and i'm lost in sleep
am i wrong?

goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck

Wed, 05 May 2004 11:13:04 GMT

curent status of tony.....still kicking

softly because of the ankle :/

but still kicking non the less

Cave in and try to take away
All that I have, all I betray...
So much damage I've done
Well this I know,

that I just fail

Turn me on me
Turn me on me
'Cause this is everything I've stripped away
I've stripped away

This is me, well this I know
This is me,

well is it?

Well the youth has certainly gone away
And at times I'd like to erase...
Please don't see that I can't have loyalty
'

Cause I just fail

Turn me on me
Turn me on me
'Cause this is everything I've stripped away
I've stripped away

And I have tried to sit you down and take the fall
Look you in the eye and tell you it all
And I have tried to sit you down and take the fall
To look you in the eye and tell you it all.....I fail

'Cause this is everything I've stripped away
I've stripped away

This is me, well this I know
This is me

I fail...

'Cause this is everything I've stripped away
I've stripped away

Tue, 04 May 2004 11:10:24 GMT

back on my bike Wogs

the stars are finaly fading to not a damn thing at all :)

time for class hookers

i'll check ya up with the times soon

tony

Mon, 03 May 2004 11:11:42 GMT

well, my diverisifed deal went to shit, all because of my ankle :(

on a funny note i was taking a shower today and i looked at my ankle and i saw a lot of black, i thought it was marker or something so i was scrubbing away, after about 5 min. of this it started to hurt, so i came to the conclusion that it was a bruise :p

i fininly found another strait edge biker, its awesome!! i was bragging about it to the girl who gives me a ride to school (cause i was tired of hearing her bitch) and she went off on me about how biking is the stupidest thing ever, and the only thing worse than that is calling yourself strait edge, so i got out of the car (hell she just called me stupid compleatly~!) and walked a mile to school. math is going to be fun with her ;)

talk to you later G's

what up wog
lol

much love
~Tony

one more song that i like a lot :)

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 16:47:47 GMT

there are stories in the soil,
loose leaves cover the ground
there's volumes in the forest,
no one reads out loud
if i could take them down
off of that mountain shelf
we used to climb but no one tries to go up that far now yeah
we're all too busy working, entertaining ourselves
forty hours
television and prescription pills

well i take two a day to make my brain behave
it never does but who's to say at least my doctor gets paid

so that's fine,
yeah come by we'll take the afternoon off
we can kiss and undress
or if you want just talk
cause i've got nothing real,
just empty space to fill
and you're my girl
i like your style
just imagine all the time we could kill

and time's not poison
but once you drink it all you'll die
so let's just sip it real slow
yeah we can nurse it all night
try to believe that once it's gone
we'll pour another round and come back to life

come right back

i guess i'm moving faster now
or that's what they said
and though some days still take forever
i can't disagree
because it seems to me that i wake up and sleep
look in the mirror
have no idea what happened in between
but i remember counting days down 'til the year could be done
so i could scatter all my notebooks on the prep school lawn
and disappear again
into a summer's bliss
of

staying out sleeping in

and getting drunk with my friends
that's gone
and i know that it won't ever come back
i accept
i won't cling to what i had in the past
but life's a slippery slope,
regret's the steepest hill

hope for the best,
plan for the worst
and maybe wind up somewhere
in the middle

and i'm not saying that i know what i want
but i know what i don't,
don't want to rot in my room
and never know what could have been
believe what everyone else tells me is true
yeah, they say 'true'
that's what they say